bear's diary

一个人的旅游日

2008-09-21T10:15:00.000-07:00

因为临时今天很空闲，突然脑海中有个想法，就是自己去看电影，逛街，享受一杯最爱的咖啡。我有这样的想法是托了两位男士的福。一个明明就不把我当朋友的前男友，突然和我常联络。一个是我没想到他会爱上我的外国人。这样的事情忽然发生在我这个平凡女孩身上，有种吃不消的感觉。很想找个地方了解自己的想法，和自己给人家什么形象，好让我自我检讨。结果我独自驾着我新车SUZUKI SWIFT去云顶，穿着我新买的NIKE外套和PUMA 的CASUAL SHOES，带着ADIDDAS的帽子。全新的我一个人买门票，去玩，自拍！我好久没享受一个人的生活了。没烦恼，没担忧，也没吵闹。当我独自在STARBUCK享受那杯LATTE时，看到一对情侣在他们的世界里陶醉，就想到自己以前多么渴望自己身旁有个男人爱护自己。现在的我很怕去谈情说爱，因为恐惧再被人抛弃吧！对不起各位，本小姐的书提电脑严重缺电，所以下次才告诉接下来的事。再见！！！

once again i touch my beloved music instrument

2008-09-04T10:15:00.000-07:00

After those sad thing happen, i decided to away from my piano...
because i can heard my tears are singing in my eyes.
but now.
i get close to music and it tried to push me to the music...
which it's just always with me but i ignored it in the corner.
like what i usually do,
i watch tv, chit chat with hubby ken.
suddenly my finger switched on the piano (i got the grand piano but it's too big for my current living place)
my finger start dancing on the white and black.
now i know..
the best thing ever happen on me was..
i get to know piano when i'm 4 years old.
most happiest thing happen in my life was i finished my grade 8 and diploma.
After my foolish love story, i ignored my best friend in the corner...
lucky i got friend in the real world..
such as, Pei kuan, shiyun, Cmae, and others..
all of them were helped me go thru my tragedy.
Seriously, i'm stupid..
i should not sad for the stupid fellow..
haha.
ok la..
i just finished 2 assigment today..
haha.
i doing it last min..
luckly manage to finish it within one day
chaoz

super nice music...hahaha

2008-09-04T10:10:00.000-07:00

Im nothing special, in fact Im a bit of a boreIf I tell a joke, youve probably heard it beforeBut I have a talent, a wonderful thingcause everyone listens when I start to singIm so grateful and proudAll I want is to sing it out loudSo I sayThank you for the music, the songs Im singingThanks for all the joy theyre bringingWho can live without it, I ask in all honestyWhat would life be? Without a song or a dance what are we? So I say thank you for the musicFor giving it to meMother says I was a dancer before I could walkShe says I began to sing long before I could talkAnd Ive often wondered, how did it all start? Who found out that nothing can capture a heartLike a melody can? Well, whoever it was, Im a fanSo I sayThank you for the music, the songs Im singingThanks for all the joy theyre bringingWho can live without it, I ask in all honestyWhat would life be? Without a song or a dance what are we? So I say thank you for the musicFor giving it to meIve been so lucky, I am the girl with golden hairI wanna sing it out to everybodyWhat a joy, what a life, what a chance!So I sayThank you for the music, the songs Im singingThanks for all the joy theyre bringingWho can live without it, I ask in all honestyWhat would life be? Without a song or a dance what are we? So I say thank you for the musicFor giving it to me

the 2nd valentine celebration

2008-08-07T19:27:00.000-07:00

the silly guy whom in aust now
in the morning ,he still emo till he need to call me from aust
of cos b4 he go for class, and i going for class..
we are good student ok?
hahaha...
he seldom emo one..
abit scare me yesterday morning..
then..
my friend told me today is chinese valentine's day
i never expected he know this special day
since he so banana..
haha..
after i reach home..
about 8pm...
i got class til 7.30 and need to fetch my bro go tuition, buy newspaper..
then he call me again..
serious..
i start think to scold him d..
keep calling me...from so far away
last time both of us in aust ...
he also never call me so often..
damn angry d..
ANGRY
haha..
ok la..
he asked me go take bath and have meal in 30 min..
he want me to on my webcam at 9pm..
fine..
usually i also take bath very fast one la..
summori i never make up except it's a big day..
so...
8.45 i already online..
.haha..
damn curious what he going to do..
dEK DEK
babe...
happy chinese valentine!!!!
love you much
muack..
here you go..
i have a something like poem for you
kinda short..
but it done by me..
the whole mail he wrote for me:
feel so sorry to my sweetheart. before i left her and come aus for my futher studies, i never managed spend my time with her. she never het mad on it, but normally girl will very angry as i know from my friend. that's why she my little angel who always bright my life with her laugh. no thing can beat it. that 's why i will love her as deep as i could. i will get a job with a good pay, buy her a dream home,get her little puppy, maybe make her pregnant to give me few little ying ying, and little ken ken. everything with no car. she's dangerous to have a girl..so i decided to give her a love SIGN
The first sign to love,It’s seems nothing in his mind
He’ll get everything To get the one he’s found
For him she’s perfect Because he love her more than anyone
She fills his heart with happiness And all the sadness kicked out from his life
He know he could spend his last moment To only hold her little hand, and tell her how deep is his love
Well, this boy really loves a girl He know this girl still missing the love deep inside her heart
But boy does nothing wrong Because she’s his world
girl, love you much. muack....promise will wait me,k?
damn happy..
and we had a little webcam dinner
haha..
quite amazing..
funny
k la..
need to rush assigment d..
tata

my next target

2008-07-22T02:08:00.000-07:00

since i no longer active at night..

since my money never goes out at night

since everything goes good

since i have no burden

why not?

WHY NOT?

"invest" some money on phone

since my phone so cacat d...

the speaker not good enough

the keypad abit cacat d...

the phone often get LACK

and i found my dream phone

hahah

that's right

SE W980i

is my next target

sorry la..

dun know why blogger keep on disable upload my pic..

so.

guys..

search it with google la.

haha.

k la..

need to go cook dinner d..

tata

i'm BeeGees's fan!!!

2008-07-21T01:26:00.000-07:00

haha...
recently i just get interested with old song
ESPECIALLY BeeGees
wow..
haha..
this caused by my mum and my lovely hubby (who now at Aust)
found that i quite love song that like Stayin' Alive, how deep is your love...
why ah?
i also dun know...
ok la..
popular song also got few quite similar with oldies...
such as, pick it up by fergie, closer by neyo...
these song really make you taste candy and crazy for love need...
but then...
i found out that mtv really...
wow...
kinda swt
ok la...
last time they can get this kind of MTV is good enough d..
so i should not tease la...
NOW
my mum switch on the HI-FI which i brought for my new room..
haha..
putting the CD ( the greatest collection of BeeGees) cost me RM100++
AND
my brother is so-called dancing ( i dun think he is dancing...cause the way he dance....)
the is BEAR's family...
i think i should suggest SARC to pick three guy to sing like beegees in multicultural night...
i think people will love it..(em...penny goes crazy again)

ok la..
i want to join my brother to dancing d..
haha..
tata!!!!!

subaru VS land cruiser

2008-07-15T07:16:00.000-07:00

last thursday, one of my friend in tawau get in car accident with his friend.
this is how it happen
one gang of friend gather together in one famous club
of cos, they went to clubbing (for farewell chirtsy)
they had alot alcohol drink (only alcohol drink, they never play with PIL)
then, went to had coffee at a mamak where nearby the club
they talked alot (since chirtsy are going to aust)
they spent few hours there, and one of their man said wanna go home d...
so the gathering is over.
chu chu (my friend) drove his subara and reach a traffic light ,
meanwhile another guy friend (i dun know him) drove his land cruiser
i think the one who drove land cruiser not awake yet....
end up,he speed up althought he know the traffic light is red
"BANG" subara and land cruiser crash together.
chirtsy they all drove their own car and follow chu chu's car....
and then they suddenly saw a familiar car crash with chu chu's subaru....
everyone thought both will die..
because both car are finish...
LUCKLY
both car are tough enough
chu chu also had fasten his seatbell which he never do that usual
and the land cruiser guy get lucky since his car are super tough
NOW
chu chu get black blue around his waist which the fasten beat caused that...
and the land cruiser guy get injured on this head..
SO,
this news had shocked all of us....(the crazy driver gang :P)
and of cos ken they all haven't get this news yet...
i gonna tell them when they call me...
lucky
chu chu is ok now...
SCARYthe guy like him die in accident= wastage of resources
haha..
sorry la..
he damn chun one..
190+ tall
fair skin, rich, BA. financial & accounting
let me show the pic....
Ooops
the only pic i have....haha
i think he not handsome in this pic..
next time i find a good one to share with you all
sorry ya..
but i ensure you he seriously leng chai one..
haha...
k la..
mum start become monk who trying to control a monkey (me), and wanna lock into a cage (bedroom) to sleep...
haha..
tata

原来他已成了我一部份

2008-07-03T20:13:00.000-07:00

KEN去了日本了两个星期，
我在发现没有他在，
生活好无聊。
其实有他在，
我能带着很轻松的心情去面对我的问题，
也能把自己的心事说出来。
要找到这种能和我一起分享我生活的酸甜苦辣。
他是目前是唯一我能直接告诉我的心事。
他的想法和别人不一样。
他不会因为你是他的朋友，而忽略了别人的立场。
大概他比较理性吧，而我比较感性。
啊，好想告诉他，我很想他。
听到吗？
我想你！

无可否认我是爱他的

2008-07-02T07:16:00.000-07:00

表面上，我和他已断绝所有关系。

可是今天我去唱歌时，我不断地想着他

那种感觉很强烈，强到我心的伤口又裂开。

我知道我不应该为他而伤心。

一，是因为我必须为KEN想。

二，他已有个人在她身旁，爱他，

笨蛋蓓盈，清醒咯。

KEN，虽然知道我一直放不下，也没逼我，

可是他还是个男人。

啊！这种感觉真讨人厌。

今天我和KEN通电话，

我有诚实地告诉他我的心情，

他也很明白。

他只告诉我

“DEAR，这不是你的WRONG。THIS IS CAUSED BY LOVE。so， ENDUP
我们FINISH TALK happily

所以现在我要保持这种心情。
PENNY， JIAYOU

女人，万岁！

2008-06-24T07:22:00.000-07:00

如果有一天心遗落在在某个不知名的角落，你会不会抛弃你身边所有的东西，包括事业，将它找回来？以前我可能想都不想，就说我愿意。可是随着岁月，我渐渐看清我身边的一切。人是很现实的，一旦发现没利用价值后，就把你狠狠地抛开。没有了事业，就没了金钱，也没了地位，就算你有爱情，又能怎样？爱情可以拿来吃吗？你的另一半又愿意和你过着没有方向的日子吗？既然爱情不能给自己一个稳定的生活，为什么不选一些实际的东西？女生要为自己而活，不是男人附属品！！！女人，让我们一起大声喊“女人，万岁！”